Air and Darkness

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I braved the sea.

I braved the sea today. Out on the edge of the Realm, where the water flows (always) round the now-frozen landscape, there is a fragment of an old temple, lovingly preserved by the demifae. And a lighthouse. There is little else in this corner of the Realm, save the lighthousekeeper’s house, which is just far enough from the lighthouse to make it an uncomfortable walk at this time of year.

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How quickly it gets dark!

How quickly it gets dark! Even though I know to expect it, darkness catches me sometimes, catches my breath and my spirit, and takes them on flights, farther away than I could go even with wings and my ability to move between Realms so easily.

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I thought, as the moon rose, about darkness.

I thought, as the moon rose, about darkness. And as the winds blew up and I could sense a storm coming, I thought also about air. If I am the Queen of Winter now, I am also Queen of Air and Darkness, or so the legends and songs say.

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If I am Queen of Air and Darkness, I shall not rush to meet Spring.

If I am Queen of Air and Darkness, I shall not rush to meet spring. I shall stand, and say to the Air, “blow through me”, and I shall say to the Darkness, “be one with me”. And I shall call the cold in, and befriend it, though I shall not scorn the sun.

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On the beach, it was harder to let the Air blow through me.

On the frozen beach, it was harder to let the Air blow through me: it threatened to blow me over. And so I bent, and let it come, and I remembered a song I learned back in my days of folk-club hopping:

I shall bow and be simple
I shall bow and be free
I shall bow and be humble
Yea, bend like the willow tree

I shall bow; this is the token
I shall wear the easy yoke
I shall bow and be broken
Yea, I’ll fall upon the rock

I’ve always heard this described as a Shaker hymn, although the only explicit references to the Christian teachings I can see there are the phrases, “I shall wear the easy yoke”, which comes from the Gospel of Matthew (“My yoke is easy and my burden is light”), and “I’ll fall upon the rock [and be broken]”, also from the Gospel of Matthew. But I digress into academic explication, a habit that’s mostly worthless to me now.

Bending my body and letting the wind take me, however, was not worthless to me.

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I found strength in bending.

I found strength in bending. And then, it was as if the wind blew through my body effortlessly, and I became an instrument of the wind.

And, as darkness fell, I also became an instrument of the darkness. What kind of instrument I will be, well. That remains to be seen.

Style Card:
Body: Maitreya
Head: Catwa, Catya Bento Mesh Head
Hair: Phoenix,  Kiara (Available NOW at Hairology!)
Eyes: Mesange, Lionsong Eyes (Omega eye appliers)
Skin: The Plastik, Taryn in Creme (Available NOW at The Plastik Main Store!)
Makeup: Arte, Frost Mask (blue)
Ears: Swallow, High Definition Elf Ears
Wings: Material Squirrel, Thethys Wings (light coloured)
Hands: Vista, Bento Prohands
Nails: The Plastik, Veez (Available NOW at The Season’s Story!)
Necklaces: both from The Plastik; short: The Skein Necklace; long: The Hallow necklace
Gown: Junbug, Ice Maiden (in Ice) (Available NOW at The Season’s Story!)
Crown: E.V.E, Valindra’s Crown
Shoes (even though you can’t see ’em!): Violatility, Fairy Heels, in Bubble

Scene:
Stairs: {anc}, Stairs for Moonlight
Lighthouse: Hideki, Lighthouse
Poses: An Lar, all from the Marta Series (Available NOW at The Season’s Story!)

Spiffy photos taken with the indispensible aid of my LumiPro. I never make Gwyneth wander frozen shores and contemplate her existence without it!

 

Self Portraits in the Dead of Winter

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Sometimes…

Sometimes, sometimes, sitting here on my cloud
My thoughts turn to fears I cannot speak aloud.
It seems too much trouble, this holding ’til Spring
And so in this darkness I whistle and I sing.

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Then I ask why…

Why did my life lead me to times such as these
Where hope for the future’s as slight as the breeze
Just give me one tale for my trouble in mind
And round it I promise I’ll twist and I’ll twine

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I’ll twine and I’ll twist…

I’ll twine and I’ll twist, till my shadow appears
I’ll see her and sing her the song of the spheres
She’ll dance with me sing with me, carry me home
We’ll drink honeysuckle and eat honeycomb
And we’ll while away decades out on the front porch
Just singing and dancing, no fear or remorse
Where there’s music, there’s hope, and my shadow will know
All of the songs I forgot long ago
Long ago, long ago, like a vine I will twine
Every tune I forgot will be mine

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But my shadow is fading…

But my shadow is fading, the dawn’s spreading blue
Blue January’s the fear I construe
She does not want to know me: she withdraws her hand
She leaves me alone all in this no girl’s land

Style Card:
Body: Maitreya
Head: Catwa, Catya Bento Mesh Head
Hair: Mithril Apothecary, Gromwell (Available NOW at  Hairology!)
Eyes: Mesange, Sekhmet Eyes (Omega eye appliers) (Available NOW at The Chapter 4!)
Ears: Swallow, High Definition Elf Ears
Skin: Lumae, Ruby (for Catwa heads), Tone 1 (Available NOW at the Lumae Main Store!)
Makeup:
Eyeshadow: Veechi, Solstice Shadow (Available NOW at The Season’s Story!)
Lipstick: Arte, Alexandra Lipstick, Pastels
Hands: Vista, Bento Prohands
Necklace: The Plastik, The Lairelei Jewelery (Available NOW at The Season’s Story!)
Top: Salt, Ella, Navy (Available NOW at The Chapter 4!)
Boots: Have Unequal, Betty Boots, Blue (Available NOW at The Liaison Collaborative!)

Scene:
Window Seat, Cushions, Poses: oOo Studio, Winterview Vignette (Available NOW at The Season’s Story!)

Spiffy photos taken with the indispensible aid of my LumiPro. I never write depressing love songs without it!

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