I’m wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I’m wishing on a dream
To follow what it means
Whenever I was ill as a child, my mum would stay home from work with me, and we’d watch The Tenth Kingdom, which is like the dumbest miniseries ever made, but it’s about falling into Fairyland, where Fairyland is a Fairy Tale land. And it’s nothing like Faerie, for real, but I always loved it as a child, and sometimes I’d love nothing more than to sink in to something like that now. Of course, that’s impossible. No DVD players in the Wylds. If people even watch DVDs any more.
I want all this to be over. I want to relax into my season of non-ruling with an air of festival and light, and all the candles lit, and all the bonfires ablaze for the last apple harvest and for Yule.
After that radio show yesterday, all I want is to forget everything, just be plain Gwyneth Evans from New Cross again. But maybe now, now that I looked into the face of this girl called Tac and found Fenella, maybe I can answer some of the questions that have been nagging me for the last — what is, it three? four? years? What happened to us all on that day? Why didn’t we end up in the same place? How did Fen turn in to such a badass, and if she’s out there, what about Richard, and Kevin, and Emma? Can we find them? How would we even start looking? Fen doesn’t seem to recognise me, and I guess after my Quickening I changed a lot physically. Becoming Queen has changed me. Glamour has changed me. The heady feel of magic in my veins like blood has changed me.
I hope that once Fenella realises who I am, we can have a real conversation. What will it be like to talk with her? Now, for the first time since the Bower changed to bring in autumn, I long for the summer treehouse again, because I want a cosy kitchen to bring Fenella to, a comfortable space with a big table and a kettle on the boil, instead of this season’s formal temples with their pavilions and archways. I guess the only properly comfortable space I have to invite someone in to will be my Residence. Bran could be unobtrusive. We could sit at the table and have tea and biscuits like civilised people, and then once she’s done yelling at me about keeping her in the Wylds for so long, I can find out about her life.
God, Fen. Fenella. My best friend. My other best friend. How did I not feel her presence near me?
I must set this meeting for very, very soon.
If you want some background for this post, here is the first post in Gwyneth’s blog, which tells the story of how she came to leave the mundane Realm.
Head: Catwa Jessica
Skin: Izzie’s, Catwa Taleah Applier, Frost, Maitreya and SLink appliers, Frost, plus freckles appliers also from Izzie’s.
Ears: BentBox, Sylvan Ears (Available at We Love Roleplay)
Body: Maitreya Lara
Hands and Feet: SLink
Eyes: IKON, Triumph Eyes, Electric
Hair: Calico, Magli (Available at Fair Play)
Necklace: Cae, Interlaced
Dress & Wings: Independent Objects, Liliana Fairy, Jera (Available at Fair Play)
Ballroom: The Looking Glass, Enchanted Ballroom
Moons and Stars: Refined Wild, Nightly Netting
Spiffy photos taken with the indispensible aid of my LumiPro. I never leave home without it!