The Dark

From Gwyneth:

Look. I think I told you earlier that The Author is going through it a bit. Now, sometimes her moods and life situations don’t affect me all that much. I guess it depends on how world-shaking the whole experience is. But this one, well. The upshot is she’s in such a funk she ends it hard even to write me these days. It feels like there’s a big well of empty everywhere she looks.

I really don’t know how we ended up here. It’s high summer in Awenia, and it’s high summer in wherever it is The Author calls home—well, wherever she is sleeping tonight anyway, but I turn around and there’s this mist-filled winter landscape with a full-on low rising December-style full moon, and I know that’s not right, because the moon should be a waxing crescent right now. I tried to consider the beauty of this middle-of-nowhere bridge first. And it is beautiful, isn’t it?

Smiling really didn’t work. This wasn’t the sort of place you smile in, I guess. I mean, mist, as pretty as it looks from a distance, is damp, folks. And even if I looked great (don’t I always?), it was hard to pass that back along and make things seem happy when they just weren’t.

So that’s when I did it. I made the ultimate mistake. ‘Look, Author’, I said. ‘I honestly have no idea what you’re on about. All this stuff that’s going on in your life is temporary. You’ll come out the other side and then you’ll wonder what you were so upset about. You’ll tell the story of this past year and a half or so as if it’s some kind of buildup to the Great New You, or whatever’.

She (The Author) stared at me. For a second, I thought I’d reached her. ‘OK, fictional construct whom I’ve been writing and telling stories about for coming up on eleven solid years, please give me some pithy life advice. I’m waiting’.

‘That wasn’t what I meant’.

‘Oh? You were just going to feed me a spoonful of verbal marshmallow fluff and not follow it up with how to get actual marshmallow fluff’?

‘What is marshmallow fluff’? I asked.

She made an inarticulate growling noise. It escalated into wordless screaming. This is not what I am about, folks. I do not come here and be the main character in all these stories to get screamed at because somebody’s life journey isn’t going the way she wants it to.

‘Fine’, I finally said.

‘Fine’, she replied.

I shook my head. ‘Actually, it’s not fine. I don’t come here to get yelled at by the one person who always believes in me. So you know what? I’m taking a break. You want to write about somebody? Write about Tacey. Write about Friðrós. Go role-play with Lira and write something about her. Make up some new avatars and tell more short stories. I? Am officially on blog narration holiday’.

She just stared at me. ‘You can’t do that’, she said.

I smirked. Watch me.

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Photo Backdrop: K&S, Eternal Veil Backdrop. Available at Midnight Order.
Outfit: Absence, Leona. Also at Midnight Order.
Eyes: Musa, Dian Eyes. This was a group gift at Musa.
Circlet: On A Lark, Diamond Vine Circlet. Available at the OAL Main Store.
Lashes: Shiny Stuffs, All Dolled Up. Available at the Shiny Stuffs Main Store.
Lipstick: Persephone, Lacrimosa.
Gwyneth is styled on a Maitreya Lara mesh body with the Petite add-on, and a Lelutka EvoX Gaia mesh head. Her ear shape is achieved via the Clover Lelutka Fantasy Ear Deformers.